Lately God has been teaching me and revealing to me so many things. I would write about them all, but I wouldn't even know where to start. I feel nervous, excited, anxious and glorious all at the same time. More than anything God is constantly showing how wonderful I am to Him. I often remind myself of the fact that God is romancing me every day. When I look around at the flowers, the beautiful sunsets and wonderful people He's put in my life, it makes me realize why I chose God as my bridegroom in the first place.
I don't have much to say as of late (mainly because I don't exactly know how to express it in terms of words and sentences), but I'm going to end with a villanelle I wrote for Contemporary Lit.
fitting the mold
beautiful in the eyes of the Master
beauty that’s missed most often by peers
who all want to fit in a mold made of plaster
individuality overlooked by a conformist by passer
only observing the flaws as to you he nears.
but we are all beautiful in the eyes of the Master.
the woman down the street will cast her
glance-at your imperfection she sneers.
she only wants to fit in a mold made of plaster.
you become aware of your own ugliness and your heart beats faster
your tear-stained face reveals your utter fear
but then you remember that you are beautiful in the eyes of the Master.
the world shouts and screams and tells you you’re a disaster
they don’t understand that you won’t listen to their jeers
they all want you to fit in a mold made of plaster
this eternal beauty is sure to last your
whole life and fill your whole being with cheer.
though the world may try to shove you in a mold made of plaster
you will always be beautiful in the eyes of the Master.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
"I'm gonna love you with my life"
So lately I've been waking up earlier than usual (which doesn't seem possible considering the fact that it's impossible for me to sleep in) and until this morning I was pretty upset about it. I couldn't figure out what was wrong. Then it hit me: a bit ago I kind of complained to God that I didn't have enough time for quality quiet times with Him. Well He definitely fixed that problem (be careful what you pray for...)! So yesterday I opened my Bible to Psalm 63. There really wasn't a reason, I just happened to land there. The verse is about David's thirst for God like someone in a dry, empty land with no water. At first it seemed to me that this was just like every other Psalm-desperation, God's perfect love and God defeating the enemy. Then I read the "daily devo" (I have the Revolve Devotional Bible which I highly recommend to girls of all ages) next to the passage.
(taken from the Daily Devo)
"Do you desire God? I mean really, really want him? There's a big difference between the kind of true, deep desire for God that David talks about in Psalm 63 and the shallow 'wanting' that some people experience...the first step in truly wanting God is realizing how much we need Him...once you see that you're totally lost without God, you're on the right track."
It was at that point that I realized that lately I haven't been truly desiring God. Of course I always claim Him as my Savior and say that I love Him, but what does that really mean to me? The fact alone that I'm typically not even willing to wake up earlier so that my quiet times with God are able to be of greater quality says it all to me. I felt so lame after coming to this realization. I am nothing without Him and lately I've been acting as though I can do it all on my own. Thankfully I have a God that cares for me enough to show me otherwise through miracles I have experienced throughout this past week (ask me about them if you'd like to know). All of this to say, how often do we really stop and take the time to thank God for who He is? How often do we acknowledge that God is the only reason we live, move and breathe? And how often do we thank God for the miracles He performs in our lives?
I am happy to say that I am a terrible, confused and hopeless mess because I have a Savior who loves me all the same and covers my sins with His beautiful grace.
(taken from the Daily Devo)
"Do you desire God? I mean really, really want him? There's a big difference between the kind of true, deep desire for God that David talks about in Psalm 63 and the shallow 'wanting' that some people experience...the first step in truly wanting God is realizing how much we need Him...once you see that you're totally lost without God, you're on the right track."
It was at that point that I realized that lately I haven't been truly desiring God. Of course I always claim Him as my Savior and say that I love Him, but what does that really mean to me? The fact alone that I'm typically not even willing to wake up earlier so that my quiet times with God are able to be of greater quality says it all to me. I felt so lame after coming to this realization. I am nothing without Him and lately I've been acting as though I can do it all on my own. Thankfully I have a God that cares for me enough to show me otherwise through miracles I have experienced throughout this past week (ask me about them if you'd like to know). All of this to say, how often do we really stop and take the time to thank God for who He is? How often do we acknowledge that God is the only reason we live, move and breathe? And how often do we thank God for the miracles He performs in our lives?
I am happy to say that I am a terrible, confused and hopeless mess because I have a Savior who loves me all the same and covers my sins with His beautiful grace.
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